UncleFester
Old Mossy Horns
To those that have reached out, I'd just like to thank you. If I haven't taken your calls it's not that I didn't want to, it's that I simply couldn't. To generalize, life has been a bit overwhelming this year.
To watch the rapid decline of one of the most intelligent individuals I've ever known has been devastating. It's been compounded by the massive theft that I've been trying to deal with by myself. I've mentioned it before that had left me with ZERO respect for the local legal system/law enforcement. This has pushed my mother further down the pathway of dementia, depression, health issues due to it all. Last week she was in the hospital and I had little hope she'd ever come home. On Friday they released her to me, but she's still in horrible shape. It's just a matter of time now.
I'm not one to truly make friends easily. If I consider you a friend I'll literally go to any lengths to help you if you're in need and I'm able. I'm not making a boast, it's just how I am. I've been thru many past traumas completely alone and if you're my friend I simply don't want you to go thru yours alone because it sucks. If something happens in a friendship I'll immediately try to figure out what's wrong and fix it if I can. If I can't and I see you don't want it to continue then I'll let it go even if I don't like it. I mean we all have times when our friends aggravate us right? Well two weeks ago I lost a friend that in 43 years I've never experienced a single moment of aggravation with. We meet weekly at the Chinese buffet to check on one another. We'd met on Thursday ate and caught up. I noticed he was a little quieter than usual, but he'd been struggling with things so I chalked it up to that. On the following Monday I was on the phone with a client and Red/Victor tried calling me two times in a row. I sent a text telling him I'd call him right back. After getting off the phone and pulling into a driveway I called him back. Instead of Red it was his son and I recieved the news that he'd had a heart attack and had passed away. So yes I'm devastated. I can't even express how painful it's been. A sword thru the heart is the best description. I lost my 'ride or die' buddy that was ten times closer to me than my own brother and unless God steps in I'm losing my mother at any moment as well. My mother's brother who's basically my brother isn't far behind her. Things are tough on a personal level at the moment.
I'm truly not after pity, just trying to explain my headspace at the moment. If I snap at you, it's not intentional. If I don't answer a call I'm either busy dealing with mom or simply not able to answer.
I'm very thankful for the friends I do have. I won't call you by name, but you know who you are and I value the friendship.
Red


To watch the rapid decline of one of the most intelligent individuals I've ever known has been devastating. It's been compounded by the massive theft that I've been trying to deal with by myself. I've mentioned it before that had left me with ZERO respect for the local legal system/law enforcement. This has pushed my mother further down the pathway of dementia, depression, health issues due to it all. Last week she was in the hospital and I had little hope she'd ever come home. On Friday they released her to me, but she's still in horrible shape. It's just a matter of time now.
I'm not one to truly make friends easily. If I consider you a friend I'll literally go to any lengths to help you if you're in need and I'm able. I'm not making a boast, it's just how I am. I've been thru many past traumas completely alone and if you're my friend I simply don't want you to go thru yours alone because it sucks. If something happens in a friendship I'll immediately try to figure out what's wrong and fix it if I can. If I can't and I see you don't want it to continue then I'll let it go even if I don't like it. I mean we all have times when our friends aggravate us right? Well two weeks ago I lost a friend that in 43 years I've never experienced a single moment of aggravation with. We meet weekly at the Chinese buffet to check on one another. We'd met on Thursday ate and caught up. I noticed he was a little quieter than usual, but he'd been struggling with things so I chalked it up to that. On the following Monday I was on the phone with a client and Red/Victor tried calling me two times in a row. I sent a text telling him I'd call him right back. After getting off the phone and pulling into a driveway I called him back. Instead of Red it was his son and I recieved the news that he'd had a heart attack and had passed away. So yes I'm devastated. I can't even express how painful it's been. A sword thru the heart is the best description. I lost my 'ride or die' buddy that was ten times closer to me than my own brother and unless God steps in I'm losing my mother at any moment as well. My mother's brother who's basically my brother isn't far behind her. Things are tough on a personal level at the moment.
I'm truly not after pity, just trying to explain my headspace at the moment. If I snap at you, it's not intentional. If I don't answer a call I'm either busy dealing with mom or simply not able to answer.
I'm very thankful for the friends I do have. I won't call you by name, but you know who you are and I value the friendship.
Red


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